Aug 202011

My cycles have stopped again. I am quite convinced that the herbs the naturopath put me on stuffed it up. I don’t even know what to do now. I’ve all but given up and am back to late night Googling… late ovulation, long cycle, yoga for ovulation and anything else I can think of to maybe chance coming across anything new. There is nothing new.

Jul 282011

Here is the thing, I have never been thin – ever. Fit? kind of. Healthy? pretty much. But thin? never. Until now. As women it is very acceptable to bitch and kid about being fat or having a muffin top, or demeurly drop our eyes in thanks when complimented that we have lost a few pounds. But it is poor taste to be proud of being thin unless you have been through some intensive program or orgainsed diet plan and/or are trying to win a competition having to do with said weight loss. I call bullshit. Bull-shit. I want to […]


It is indifference, and usually I have it down pat when it comes to a very unfortunate person in my life. However tonight is not that night. Tonight I am writing a letter to a person for whom I alternate between utter disgust / loathing and complete indifference. Due to a situation that has recently arisen I have to address an accusatory hurtful email sent to me nearly 2 years ago. Well I don’t have to but I need to in order to move on. I am sitting here and I feel like I have icewater running through my veins, […]

Mar 202011

Sometimes I just drop off the grid. I keep going about each day, working, cooking, laughing but I stop reaching out to anyone. It makes me think about them even more, and then makes me kind of sad, and sometimes I don’t know how to snap out of it. Being so far away from everyone I kind of just feel forgotten a lot.

Nov 252010

Unfortunately this has nothing to do with crazy outdoor sex, or animalistic positions or over-grown body hair in the slightest. It would be so much more pleasant if that was all we had to worry about these days. The first year of no period and crazy hormonal crap I spent gooogling ‘ovulation regulation’ and PCOS and hormones and ‘fix me I’m broken’. For a while I started tracking things on my own based on Dr. Google. I was pretty well versed in what was going on once we went to a fertility doctor to see if we could learn more […]


I have a general distaste for doctors. I find most of them don’t care to figure out what is wrong with you, but will just prescribe pills to fix what it may look like in the shortest amount of time possible.  I once had a GP try to prescribe me antidepressants because I broke into tears during an appointment while sick as a dog. It was the first time I had ever seen him, and he didn’t even have any history, out came the script pad and ‘Why don’t you try these for a while’… WTF, really? WTF. Just give […]

Aug 032010

It all started about a year and a half ago. I went off the pill, finally, after about 15 years. My body staged a revolt. First the sex drive went on holidays – severe holidays – for a couple of months. The my hair decided that it had places other than on my head that it needed to be, luckily I have a fare bit to begin with so the handfuls in the shower were more mentally disturbing than visually an issue. My period however did not come to the party at all. It was over 6 months until the […]

Jul 222010

In the interest of full disclosure, this blog is here so that I have somewhere to file away the madness in my head. That’s it. If you come to visit you are welcome to say hi, or not, whatever. This is my diary in the world-wide-web. Anonymous, faceless, but possibly more me than I am anywhere else. It might be humorous, or snarky, or tortured. There’s a lot of other stuff in between. Severely sarcastic peeks it head in every now and then too, who am I kidding, sarcastic is most of the time. Consider yourself warned, pour a drink, […]

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