Jun 302012
 

I’m struggling. All I want to do is work on my blog (not this one, sorry) and I can’t. Yeah I still churn out a post or two each week – and I have without a doubt a list of pending posts and things I want to cook and germs of recipes swirling in my head – but I can’t seem to do it. I wander in and out of the kitchen, I stare at the screen and keyboard, I watch twitter, I try to edit photos, I snack endlessly, I write here instead. I can’t get my head around […]

 
Making lists and how my brain functions...

There are two kinds of people in this world. Ones who make lists and ones who don’t. I’m not judging either way it just is how it is. I am a list maker – I have to write things down or they fly out of my head, peeking back in a the most inopportune times and haunting me endlessly. I also love ticking things off of said lists – it is terribly satisfying. Needless to say the lists for our upcoming trip have started, sort of… there are currently three items staring me from a piece of paper on my […]

 

It’s been a while. I’ve been running very fast and not really getting anywhere. It has been a month of decadence and a bit of laughter and a bit too much sadness. A month of far too much work at things I don’t enjoy, and far too little work on things I do. This evening I landed on the vanilla bean blog, lured by a promise of cardamom sugar buns. While the promised buns were there, I was drawn in by her introspective words and a quote by¬†Joseph Campbell ‘Participate joyfully in the sorrows of world. We cannot cure the […]

 

Occasionally the teachers at my yoga studio read quotes during the practice. Some resonate, some I just breath in one ear and out the other. But one caught my attention the other day. ‘You cannot force the fruit to ripen, you can only feed the tree‘. Apparently it was said by a famous philosopher but I can’t for the life of me remember who (can anyone help out with this one?) – the quote stuck but the author’s name flew out with an exuberant round of core. I’ve been trying my best to feed the tree. To put good things […]

 

Many years ago a good friend called us gypsies. It made us laugh because it is pretty close to the truth. Not in the traveling-light sense but in the never-quite-settled sense. We get itchy feet quickly, we need to travel, or move or change. So in an attempt to solve for one of our items of inertia a decision has been made, sort of. A decision to look somewhere else to live. Somewhere that is less expensive, and closer to the beach and promises of a better lifestyle. Yes the irony of stating that we are forever on the move […]

 

The Dev and I have been having issues lately. Not with each other luckily but with the struggle together against inertia. The painful horrible repetitive nature of doing the same thing day in and day out. Of working all week just to get to the weekend, and then doing it all again just to rush through another week or month or year of life with nothing to show for it. The pressure of the passing of time, of getting older every day and being at the same place we were a year ago for so many things. We are both […]

 

So there is this woman at work who is remarkably judgmental about people taking leave. Vocally, eye-rolling-ly judgmental. The other day she had to justify the leave that she needs to take now, then at Christmas, then to get married, and then later on to take a delayed honeymoon. I felt bad listening to the run around she was being given, yet thought to myself, now you see how you make everyone else feel. I’d put money on the fact that the irony didn’t even occur to her.

 

The other evening @edenland posted on Twitter: I dare everyone on twitter to tell the truth. I’ll begin: I’m wracked with doubt, can’t get a job, parenting can bite me. Go. My response was this: I have an alter ego because I can’t say what I want as myself. And I stay up late at night hoping morning takes longer to get here I watched the stream of responses for a while. It is interesting to me how people put on twitter what they won’t or can’t say in real life – do real life people not follow them there? […]

 

Every once and a while things work out as they should. Instead of the sale starting the day after a big purchase it starts the day before. A late start means the traffic has cleared and the trip takes less time. You get laid off the day you are planning on quitting so they pay you to leave a job you would have paid to get out of. Yeah. That. 2 hours before a meeting that had been scheduled for weeks where I was planning on handing in my resignation. They couldn’t figure out why I wasn’t as shaken as […]

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